Time for a change...for real this time!

So its time for a change. Im always trying to change myself, become a better person but I always fall back into the same habits. I have no choice this time. I am a mom. I have to change for him. The most important change I have to make is in my spiritual life. Its so easy to put God on the back burner and only "use" him during the hard times. I dont want to be like that but its what always happens. I start quiet time or small group and for a while I do good. I learn and our relationship is great until I start to get lazy. Then I slowly start to go back to the same routine and leave God out, until of course I need something. Another thing I need to change is my health. I have two health issues,PCOS and Intracranial Hypertension, that will pretty much disappear if I can lose weight. I try to eat healthy but unfortunately I just dont like "healthy" food. Most of it stems from the fact that my mom got sick when I was young and Hannah and I had to learn how to cook before we were teens. The only thing we knew how to cook was Hamburger Helper and corn. Sometimes we had no choice but to have fast food. Now its just so easy to eat out instead of cook, even though I LOVE to cook. But as I said before, I have no choice. I want to be healthy for my family. I want to grow old with my best friend and love of my life. I want to see (literally see!) my kids get married. So I have a lot of work to do!

List of changes I want to make in my life:
More time for God
Better eating habits
Better cleaning habits...We have habit of only cleaning once a month
Better work ethic...its easy to slack when you work for the family biz
My language...I have a bad habit of cussing...I know this may be a shock to some but when I am in a comfortable setting I have a habit of cussing. Of course there are certain words I never say, but still, cussing is cussing...I blame my dad!
Thats all for now!

Hospital bills Suck!

I had Jacob in April and some of my bills are already going to collections...what the heck?!? I swear on some of these I have never even gotten a bill! And crazy CLRMC is trying to keep my $3k deductible that I dont owe them! One thing that I want to know is why do they charge you $25k for a c-section when I have a separate bill from the OB, room and board, nursery, and anathesiaologist (yes I spelled that wrong). What the heck is covered under the $25k?? Am I paying to lay on the table?? Oh well eventually I will pay off all these medical bills. Better start saving for the next one!!

So I started a blog

Ive always wanted a blog. I LOVE to read other peoples blogs and who knows maybe someone would love to read mine. I apologize now if I rant or vent. Im going to consider this a journal so good luck! Get ready for some craziness!